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catching up   
03:02am 06/04/2005
 
mood: curious
Thought i would throw a lil thoughts out there since i havent posted in a lil while.. let me see what i can talk about.. I got back from cancun a couple weeks ago.. it was easily the time of my life.. i long to go back there as soon as i can.. i enjoyed almost everything about the trip..the people i went with, the hotel,(kind of) the experience..i became closer to people just from one trip.. i learned a lot about people and alot from people...lets see.. first off... i became good friends with Jo who i hadn't really known before but after a lot of late night/early morning talks till sunrise we really learned a lot about each other and became good friends.. not to mention the first day of the trip we had to get naked for a free t-shirt.. but that is besides the point...anyways.. so that is good that i made a friend that i didn't really know before the trip.. i learned that Kim and timbo are a really nice couple and are very cool to hang out with.. i already knew blackham,rico,and carney.. and Ali turned out to be a very cool shit.. i knew her before.. but not that well.. I kind of learned a lot about Lisa on this trip too.. im not sure if it is a good thing or a bad thing.. i figured that we would always be good friends no matter what and i showed that i will be by her side in the thick and thin.. but i am still not sure if we grew closer over the trip or further apart..i mean i have always had a crush on her and everything.. but i always knew nothing would come of it.. and i think i found out in cancun that i wouldn't want anything to come out of it..actually i dunno.. i have no clue what the hell i am talking about...only god knows... anyways got back and was sick as a dog.. i guess i have had bronchitis since december.. and the doc wasn't too happy about it.. the good thing is that i am excused from my classes till i feel better... and if i want i can take a medical leave....hmmmm what else? me and jac are not talkin at the moment.. she says that she can not handle the frustration of being friends with me..it hurts.. but i can also see where she is coming from and i understand her.... but still she is the love of my life and not talkin to her really eats me up inside... it's been like a week but yet in my heart it feels like a year..i want to like other girls and hook up with other girls.. but as of right now i dont think anyone will ever compare to the way i feel about jacquie.. im looking but not really trying.. i dunno if this is a sign that i really should try to find someone else i could give my heart too.. but there may be only 1 or 2 people right now other than jacquie that i would even consider doing that too.. and i am certainly not ready for that.. i wanna play the single scene... but i cant.. i need to love.. i need to be loved.. i want to cuddle next to someone everynight.. i wanna lay in bed in the afternoon and listen to the rain fall..i wanna be able wake up every morning with a smile on my face.. basically i want what i had and lost(my own fault) with jacquie.. soo many good memories.. more than enough to cross out that bad ones..and ive said it before and i will always say it.. jac has a spot in my heart that i dont think anyone can replace.. and i hope i have a part of hers..
 
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hate   
11:00pm 11/02/2005
 
mood: content
I was thinkin today.....i know scary.. but anyways.. i had a rough semester last semester(fall 04) and i dont really blame it on anything but myself.. i think there were a lot of contributing factors to it.. but mainly it was just me.. anyways the topic shifts to the word hate.. i dont like a lot of people.. im someone with a tough shell and it takes a lot for someone to crack it and for me to open up to them and trust them and like them.... i do dislike a lot of people for certain reasons.... but i do not hate a lot of people.. maybe 3... it used to be 1.. but after semester i generated a hate towards someone.. it takes a lot for me to hate someone.. a real lot.. for me to hate someone.. i need to trust them.. if i cant throw them more than i can trust them.. then i'll dislike them.. in order to hate them.. they need to do something to me that i can never imagine someone doing to another person.. i now hate one more person.. it should be noted that this didn't happen recently.. but a lil while ago.. and i am just deciding to post on it now.... now, some may ask what is the difference between dislike and hate? there is a huge difference.. if you are on my dislike list.. there is always going to be a chance that you can prove yourself to me to get off of the "shit" list... and i am very lenient about getting people off my shit list... but the thing with hate... once i hate you.. i will always hate you.. nothing is going to change.. your are permantly erased from my thoughts and memories.. i dont care about your existance.. and i dont care about your thoughts and concerns... i dont even know you... and you will always remain that way in my life.. nothing will change it.. so congradulations (you know who you are) you are now on the hate list.. you are never getting off.. and to be honest.. i do believe you are on a lot of peoples hate list.. best of luck to you in the future.... because you are going to need it....if anything ever happens between you and the love of your life( who by the way is one of the nicest, coolest guys i have met) and it is a shame he has to waste his time with a waste of space like yourself.. but just rememeber...after love.. there is friends.. but with you.. after love.. there is nothing.... and there will always remain to be nothing..
 
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damn   
06:31pm 26/11/2004
 
mood: uncomfortable
I have no clue how to explain how i feel right now.. it's sooo messed up..it is really messing with my head and i wish i had someone to talk to but it seems like there is no one..Its depressing... and i realized that llife is depressing.. even though i have a lot of things to be happy about.. it seems like i always think of the things that make me unhappy and that makes me miserable...Eddie turned 21 yesterday... that leaves only me out of our group of friends who are still under 21... this could get bad.. haha.. but anyways.. they all went into boston tonight (friday) and mike and meg were waiting for eddie,okane,philly, and me at my house so they could car pool... so i was saying goodbye and i looked into the backseat and i saw jacquie.. and it caught me totally off-guard.. i haven't seen her in over a month and it was weird.. it felt like my heart was broken.. but yet it still skipped a beat.. it was the weirdest feelin i have ever felt in my life.. and i sat there and thought this is the only time i have ever been in jacquies prresence and have felt weird.. i've been guilty, sad, angry, and the list goes on... but i have never felt weird around her.. i made eye contact with her but she didn't with me.. or at least i think she didn't.. she didn't say hi, neither did i... i kind of just walked away offered to pick my friends up when the bars close in boston and i went on my way.. i wanted to get out of that situation as soon as possible.. but a part of me wanted to stay.. and just pull her out and hug her and talk to her.. i realized just now.. it's soo easy to run away from your problems when you dont have to face them... but when your problems are in your face you have to be a real man to get rid of them..so i walked away.. should i text her? call her? email her(cowards way) i dunno.. what would i talk about? so anyways.. i walked away.. my legs felt numb as i walked up my driveway.. i was thinkin while i was walking up the driveway that i wanted to run back and say i wanted to come with them... but i just kept walking.. got to my front door.. had one last look back and walked inside..numb.. didn't quite know what to do with myself so i came here.. but talking to a keyboard is doin nothing for me..i dont know.. i think i just need to talk to her.. in person and face my problem face to face..not hidding behind a phone or a computer.. i should stop being a pussy..but whats is there to be said? nothing but the past.. and we've been and done that before.. i dunno.. any help would be great.. thanks.. leave it
 
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11:35pm 21/07/2004
  Alright...so...how much progress have i made? Answered simply... none..Im just glad i am at home for all this... my friends are important to me right now.. but i just realized... that all i need is friends.. and that i should try my best to keep the friends i have and not worry about love and relationships because i have plenty of time for that stuff later in my life... i need to worry about keeping my friendships strong and being a nice person to the people i care about... i dont know exactly if i am a nice person.. i know that i can be a complete dick sometimes.. but everyone can be.. i need to work on that though.. so many times i think i should have lost friends by the way i acted...Im trying my best to control my anger.. one more really bad time i am signing myself up for anger management.. not boxing is hurting me right now.. being physical always helped me.. hurting people made me feel better.. but i didn't feel bad because it was a sport.. i def. have an anger problem because that is why i fought so much as a kid.. i was angry... i need to try to be a nicer person.. and i am trying to be a nicer person especially to the people i care about and love...like my friends.... i dunno.. dont even know why i post.. just to relieve stress.. if you wanna post me comments or suggestions that would be greatly appreciated
peace and love to all
 
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none   
03:22pm 12/07/2004
  I am a prisoner of my own thoughts  
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Whoa   
10:26pm 26/06/2004
 
mood: indescribable
What a fucked up week.. talk about being stressed.. damn... with all the shitty news i was recieving i was about ready to snap.. fucked up..news with charly..crazy.. i've never known anyone with cancer.. it doesn't really run in my family so i never had any family memebers who were unfortunate enough to come down with it.. poor charly.. but i know she is strong enough to get through it.. ontop of that i get news about my uncle being in the hospital with a collapsed lung.. not to serious but serious enough to make you think about death.. and what if he dies..i consider joey one of my major 4. ( 4 people whose unexpected or surprising deaths would probally cripple me for the rest of my life)Mom,(of course) Dad (cant lose my 2nd half) Nikki, (Loving sister) and Joey ( 2nd father, dad's twin.. when i was younger.. use to call him daddy sometimes.) Because growing up with my dad in the navy.. he acted like a daddy.. he's just an overall good person.. im proud to say i am a livingston because he is part of our name... thank you god that he pulled through the surgery without incident..He should be fine now.. as long as he doesn't take up smokin again.. im hoping this gives my dad motivation to quit smokin... he says on his bday he will quit.. thats monday.. we'll see.. my mom.. will be smokin even after she is dead.. worries me... but i want her to be happy...if that makes her happy and relaxed.. then thats fine with me..maybe one day Nikki will stop smoking too.... jeez.. someone answer why i am not a smoker? amazing..too bad i am an alcoholic.. lol... not really though.. if i wanted to stop drinkin on the weekends.. i could.. not a big deal.. i dunno.. just fucked up right now.. probally will be for a while..realized something.. never is there a day when you cant worry about something.. there will always be something..it's a wonderful life though. wouldn't trade it away for anything.
 
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Eh   
04:54pm 06/06/2004
  Living in my new apartment.. not bad..kind of getting homesick cuz it is the summer.. and all my friends are from the coast... but eh whatev...thinkin that after my two summer courses i am going to come home for the last 2 months of the summer..end of the month i am going camping with all my friends.. and that will be a blast.. i just feel that there is a lot i have to do.. and i cant get it done from here.. i feel so isolated.. i dont want my friends to think that i dont want to hang out with them.. cuz i live out here.. i just want it to be easier to go to school.. and i want to graduate quickly.. but i think it would be best to go home at the end of june.. and i think that is what i am going to do.. i miss weymouth.. i miss the beach.. i miss the coast.. it's not that i dont like people out here..actually i hate the locals.. but i do have friends out here.. but it's just not the same.. i am going to make the most of it while i am here.. try hard in class.. get good grades.. maybe go to work.. maybe not.. i'd like to relax.. i wanna go somewhere.. possibly a red sox game.. i'm looking into it.. have to see if i have anyone to go with ;) I want to play golf.. i think i might go tomorrow by myself if it is nice out.. then go to class..grandfather died last week.. had the funeral and wake this weekend.. weird being around my family so much.. it was a nice service. very sad. i read at his funeral.. very neervous.. but the preist and everone else said i did a good job.. i think i did alright.. i hope i made joe proud.. it's tough to see a Livingston fall.. i'll make him proud.. till the next time.  
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Yey   
11:37am 08/05/2004
 
mood: excited
Well it is saturday.. didn't get much sleep last night.. had a LONG talk with jac,for once it seemed that talkin actually maybe led to some progression.. and not fighting like it usually does..we talked about that...we dont fight.. its more of me getting annoyed and not wanting to talk... if anyone knows me... which only a few people do..and your right gidg.. you are one... but anyways, if anyone knows me they know i dont like to talk about my feelings..or i dont like to talk period.. it's not that i dont trust people.. cuz the 2 people i talk to the most.. i def. trust.. but it's just that i see it as.. who the hell wants to know how i am feeling? no point in me putting anything into a conversation..i dont know exactly where i am going with this.. but i dunno.. i just dont like to talk.. i am a talker.. but ii am saying i dont like to talking about "things" i dunno if that makes any sense.. workin on no sleep pretty much.. anyways 7 days till we move into the apartment.. fuckin awesome! can not wait.. going to be one of the best summers.. i need to get my tuition money so i can take classes over the summer..that is something that i am gonna have to do today.. along with my powerpoint presentation, and maybe a lil reading.. wow.. sounds like a fun day.. hopefully i make it through these finals alive.. see you all guys later
 
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grrrrrr   
04:10pm 04/05/2004
 
mood: pissed off
Its so funny how you can love someone.. but hate them also.. weird...stupid shit.. just wanna graduate.. get out of this school.... it's not neccassarily a shitty schoool... i like it here.. but im ready to get out of here.. and i got 3 years left... but of course i talked to her today about me wanting to graduate.. and she said that life is harder after you graduate.. like she knows what i am going through.. she really has no idea.. she doesn't know what i go through...she thinks she knows.. but she doesn't... she was giving me all this shit about how hard it is to hold a job and shit like that.. not for me.. i know it wont be hard to hold a job.. she thinks she knows.. but she has no idea.. just like everyone else
 
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yo   
05:03pm 03/05/2004
 
mood: scared
wow, havent wrote in such a long time... was looking through all my journal entries.. its amazing of how far i've come since the beginning of school.. and all the people i met... all the drama that i lived through.. and all the drama my friends have lived through... good times though.. Life is filled with drama.. and it always will be. I realized that i am never going to be relaxed.. i am never going to be drama-free.. no matter what road i take in life there is going to be drama.. i guess it is just how i deal with it that will make a difference.. I am kind of getting sick of some people.. and their attitudes.. i hate how she makes me feel all the time... if you love someone... why would you ALWAYS make them feel like shit? I hate how it is always my fault when things go wrong.. and the reason things go wrong are because of me... i dont understand... i dont really understand much of anything though...she's out of here though.. not sure if i am sad.. or relieved... in some ways i am sad.. because i do still love her.. and the more i think about it.. she might be the only one i have ever loved.. i thought i loved maybe 1 more.. but now that i feel the way i did/do.. i know i didn't.. so in some ways i am sad that she is leaving...kind of hope she just finds how to be happy... obviously it is not me.. as a b/f or just a regular friend.. i tried.. my chest hurts. i hate this love shit.. it never seems to work.. being loved and not loving back.. loving when your not suppose to..sucks..i am happy with my situation right now.. i have some of the best friends in the world.. and def. charly is one of the best things that has ever happened to me.. i have learned a lot from her.. she's just a great person.. I feel that i am growing up.. slowly but surely..just sometimes i feel so trapt. what is my problem? loving someone i am not suppose to.. and not loving someone that i def. should love... damn.. this love shit is tricky.. i am a strong believer in fate.. fate and god eventually will show me the way.. for now i think of it as only 2 roads.. but it might not even be the 2 roads i am thinking of right now.. it could be a completely different road..just wish i could figure it out..my chest hurts.. i think i am feeling heartbreak.. jac will move on.. what does she want to do with me? i still have 2 years of school.. and she is done..timing is off.. wish i was 22.. and graduating.. all i know is.. no matter what happens.. there is always going to be a space for her in my heart.. i know that probally isn't the best thing.. but i just cant think of it any other way.. she will eventually move on.. maybe one day.. i will too.
 
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:)   
02:54pm 10/07/2003
 
mood: relaxed
I have been working my ass off the past week.. it is only thursday and i already have 40 hours and i still have to work from 4-1030 tonight.. Exciting!! but it really is not that bad because i make a lot of money.. but it sucks cuz i have lots of bills!! does anyone else hate cell phones as much as me? it doesn't even seem like i talk on it that much.. then i get my bill and i almost die.. 100 dollars over... that sucks.. that is like a days worth of tips... but when i save my money.. i start to think exactly what the hell i am saving for.. i like to have goals.. and to save up for something.. but there is nothing.. hmmmmm but having a lot of money is never a bad thing... I am waiting for the results of my state boards( E.M.T.) and it is making me nervous as hell... i am getting soo excited for this weekend... i am going to Marthas Vinyard with Jacquie.. we are going to have a great time.. like always.. very exciting... i planned us a special day for next sat.. i really hope she likes it...I night in Boston... Nice Hotel in Boston right on the water.. and a red sox game?? does it sound good to the ladies?? keep in mind jacquie loves the red sox.. so dont think i am one of those guys who buys his girl stuff that also fits his own needs.. the tickets wern't that expensive.. but the damn!! Hotel rooms in Boston are really expensive.. how do those people sleep at night??? i better get a god damn mint on my pillow....haha time for work ;)
 
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09:57pm 06/07/2003
 
mood: happy
I would just like to say i am soooo hot!!! DAMn
 
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Hello!   
03:54pm 27/06/2003
 
mood: hot
Hello everyone... i am sorry i have not posted since like school..I am sorry i have been sooo busy with work and school and graduation parties.. I hope everyones summer is going good.. mine is very good.. i have been mostly working and hanging out with my friends... life is good.. Made dean's list this semester.. 3.56 beat that!!! hahahaah just playing.. i hope everyone is ok.. drop me a line.....
 
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I liked this quiz.... thanks JEFFY! :)   
12:59pm 21/02/2003
 
mood: horny
What band/artist.....
Reminds you of an ex-lover: Mariah Carey
Reminds you of an ex-friend: Jimmy Eat World
Makes you cry: I dont cry... but Perfect Circle
Makes you laugh: Blink 182
Makes you smile: Avril Larviene *spelling*
You never want to hear again: Anything Country
Sums up your teenage years: Taproot
You want to get married to: Whatever
You like to wake up to: Something shitty so i have to turn it off
You like out of your parents record collection: Pink Flyd, Rolling Stones, ect. ect.
You love that you wouldn't know about if it wasn't for a friend: The Trouble
You love the video more than the tune: Any Foo-Fighters video
Reminds you of your first crush love: Metalica
Reminds you of your now crush love: Dave Matthews Band,
Makes you think of sex: Techno
Makes you think of being alone: Perfect Circle
Has only been released recently but you love already: Audioslave
Are you embarrassed to admit you like: Probally, Avril Laverine
Perks you up: Fear Factory and Pissing Razors
you love to sing to: Pink Floyd, Perfect Circle, EVERYTHING

[Four beverages you drink frequently]
1. Diet Coke
2. orange juice
3. Water
4. Some sort of alcohol.. E.I. Beer or hard shit

[Four TV shows you liked when you were a little kid]
1. Simpsons
2. Doug
3. Rugrats
4. T.M.N.T.


[Four places to go in your area]
1. Snowbaording
2. Bowling
3. Holyoke
4. Da Bank

[Four things to do when you're bored]
1. Video Games
2. Friends
3. Gym
4. Music

[Four things that never fail to cheer you up]
1. Friends
2. Music
3. Dane Cook
4. Poker

[Four things you can't live without]
1. Friends
2. Music
3. Poker
4. Sleep

[About ten years ago *list three things*]
1. I was 9
2. Lived in Chicago
3. Fat

[About four years ago *list three things*]
1. I became *popular*
2. Had my first g/f
3. Stared High school soccer

[about one year ago *list three things*]
1. Found out who are my real friends
2. Worked at Main St.
3. Went to MOntreal

[Today...]
1. Is Friday!!
2. Is a beautiful day..
3. Is 19 days away from montreal again

[Seven things you love]
1. Friends
2. Simpsons
3. Food
4. Sleep
5. Video Games
6. Poker
7. Soccer


[Seven things you dislike]
1. Liars
2. Slobs
3. Cheaters
4. Not having Money
5. Fat people
6. Ignorant people
7. Stpid people

[seven things on your desk]
1. Laptop
2: Cookies
3. speakers
4. lamp
5. Pictures
6. Juice
7. Pen

[Seven facts about you]
1. I am Happy
2. I am 6'0
3. 220 lbs
4. I am NOT fat
5. I miss my parents
6. I miss my friends back at home
7. I found great new friends here at college
 
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Hi Ya'll   
08:08pm 19/02/2003
 
mood: crazy
Hello all... nice to see that everyone is back and happy again.... my hall is still the drama section of the world.. but what else is new?? anyways i booked my trip to montreal for spring break... i am leaving in exactly 21 days... and i wish i was leaving tomorrow.. it is the funnest place i have ever been in my life.. i seriously can not wait.. going with a great group of people.... and staying at a pissa hotel... does not get much better than that.. the more i think about it.. the more excited i get... i think i shouoold stoip thinking about it.. or else i will have a heart attack anyway i miss my friends in the hot zones.. you know who you are.. protect yourselves and kill my some sand N**gers and bring me back some sand a towel... that would be cool... love you all... peace
 
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It has been a while   
03:07pm 12/02/2003
 
mood: bored
OK it is time for me to start posting again.. now that i am back at school with all of my friends the drama starts so now i actually have something to post about that might actually be interesting..Anyway i am sorry to anyone who actually enjoys reading my posts cuz i have not posted in a long time.. but anyways.... ok here it is... we got ourselves established in this section.. My college friends.. there is Dave, tony, Joe, Ricco, Laura, Jac, Shan, Mike, Andy, Jon, Chris, Kevin, Phil, And Trin.. But yet there is one fucking annoying ass girl in my section.. No Names.. Ahem MEghan. Excuse me.. but this girl quite possibly could be the dumbest girl i have ever met.. I really think if the other guys in the section wanted her to be.. she could be the Section Slut.. firstly she slept with the biggest playa of them all in the first month.. now she is gonna fuck my friend chris.. i am glad to hear that He is just in it for sex.... I know that is a bad thing to say... but he should not waste his time with her.. she is dumb... she get's played so badly.. and she is about to find this out in a lil bit.. once my boy plays her like a game...Hopefuly that is all that will happen and we will leave it at that.... But then this girl likes to talk shit about Jacquie... and that aint cool.. we all know Jacquie is more mature than she will ever be.. and just shakes it off.. but constant shit talked behind her back begins to get to her...it would for all of us... the girl needs to grow up and realize that this is not high school anymore... this is college. there is no more "cool kids" and the "un-cool kids" Personally if there was... she would not be in the cool group.. sluts are not part of the cool group... wow i am really going off on this chick..but that is ok..I am happy to see that laura is around a lot.. she has to stay here for a weekend and we can corrupt her... hehehehehehe.. but it is def. a pleasure having her around a lot... Montreal in 28 days!!!!!!!
 
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Im back   
09:36pm 24/01/2003
  Hey ya'll i am back at school.. it is going ok.. i have a lot of late classes so i am kind of run down in the morning, but oh well.. anyway laura has been coming by on a regular basis because she has nothing better to do between her huge breaks between classes.. i am happy that she comes by and her presence is always enjoyed.... right now it is friday night and i am fucking starving... i have not eaten since this morning... it is no ones fault except for my own.. i had a c.p.r. class tonight till 10 ( i thought it was out at 9) before my class i forgot to eat.. Ya so i am starving while i am reviving a manican.. it was great.. but i was happy i took the class because it was very useful.. and interesting.. I pray to god that i will never have to use what i learned on someone i hold dear.. but if i must i am glad to know that i can now save their life instead of just looking at them dumbfoundly.... anyway nothing much is up.. i am waiting for my pizza to coook.. while the rest of the section drinks and has a good time.. i think i am sitting out ttonight.. i got another c.p.r. class at 9 am. tomorrow morning so i think i should try to stay clear... there is always tomorrow night.. :)  
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Yo   
03:49pm 02/01/2003
 
mood: working
Hey guys i have not posted in a while.. but nobody responds to my post.. so i figure why post?? I want to know what you all are thinking.. damn! anyway the home life is good.. i have been working my ass off to make money so i am not broke when i finaly go back to school.. I miss you all out there in western mass.. you know who you are :). anyway Christmas was good.. family friends and presents... I found out that Charly is leaving.. so i am upset about that.. i will miss her a lot.. and i wish her the best of luck..and god bless her... But anyway.,. new year's was crazy.. from what i remember... which isn't much... but good times were had by all... I just got off of work now.. but now it is time to go to the gym... i dont think it ever stops for me.. PS. i still have presents i need to give to people... they have been sitting on my dresser for a few weeks now.. you know who you are... SO CALL ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DAMN
 
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Christmas Shopping   
05:54pm 19/12/2002
 
mood: tired
Well since I am home back in Weymouth I got to go christmas shopping at a mall where i actually know where good sales are and shit... Let's see I got everybody except for my mom... I hope Charly likes her present... i am pretty sure Laura will like hers... well she should at least.. which reminds me.. I need to go out there before christmas.. Does anybody know if the school store is open even though there is nobody there>?? Charly? well cuz i was an idiot and bought my friend a pair of Westfield shorts.. and then left them in my rooom for break.. DUH!! So obviously i cant get into the dorms so i will just buy some new ones.. and give the other ones to someone else for a birthday or something...sounds like a plan..i only spent a little over $100 todday which is actually pretty good for shopping...I do need help though in deciding what to get my mother... I love her very much and I would like to make her smile...Well obviosly with everyone else i got presents for but especially my mom... so any suggestions would be nice..I still do not have transportation anywhere... I have to wait for my friends to get home from work.. so I have been sleeping late.. and it feels very good.. but i need to start working.. so i can have fun next semester.. hehe anyway Charly once i wrap your present we will get togather and I will give it to you... actually probally not till dec. 24th.. Try to keep the christmas spirit if you know what i am saying.. But give me a call so we can hang out.. maybe FRIDAY! kick your ass in Beruit.. I will call you Laura this weekend.. and we can figure out what the hell we are gonna do next week.. ok? :) bye!
 
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HELLO!   
01:17am 19/12/2002
 
mood: calm
Well I have been home for a full day now... it is good to see all of my old friends again, even though most of them are still in high school and the high schoool does not get oout until friday.. hmmm.. oh well i got the college boys so i got that going for me..I think i did well this semester in school.. figuring it was my first semester in college and everything.. so i agree with KAtie and i think i deserve to go get fucked up this month!! Tell me when and where and i will be there... making a fool out of myself like i always do., :P But anyway the only thing i am pissed at right now is the fact that i dont have my car, cuz i lent it to my sister and she wont be back from school until Sunday... sometimes being nice comes back and bites you in the ass huh?
 
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